(Cynical)Thought of the day

Maybe the key to a happy life is finding snatches of happiness amongst all the bullshit. But it's probably more likely that happiness is nothing more than finding the right combination of medications.

I Take It Back

Okay, so apparently I missed some key elements during my first viewing of the new epi of "The Boondocks". The episode is classic MacGruder...cynical, subversive and funny as hell. I will say that when I watched last Sunday I was in and out of the room, trying to get ready for work the next day, so I admit missing a lot. I hang my head in shame...

Sometimes...I get tired

I am a woman raising a man. And I admit that 70% of the time, I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. How do I teach a man, how to be a man? How do I give a man the insight he needs to be the best man he can possibly be? Why is it that, by virtue of me being a "strong black woman" (and really, what fucking CHOICE do I have) I am just expected to KNOW what to do to take this man-child to manhood? Where is the man who made this child with me? Why does he get to slack off EVERYDAY, but I get the side eye when I decide that I want to sleep in on Saturday? Why do I have to cry in private? Why do I have to hide my pain...frustration? They say "never let them see you sweat" well I'm sweating, dammit. I don't care who sees. I just want someone to hear me when the shit gets real and I need to vent. I ain't giving up...I just need to let it out.

Sometimes...I get tired, too.

So...I watched the latest Boondocks epi...

and the thrill is gone. Aww, Aaron...we hardly knew ya.

Declaration of the Day

I don't care how "humble" you think you are...name dropping is just plain tacky. Name dropping on Twitter is especially tacky and also pathetic. You're better than that. Stop it.

Declaration of the Day

Sometimes being a responsible adult sucks ass!!!

High Fructose Corn Syrup is Just Like Sugar!

Except it's not. I've been doing some research on the almost omnipresent ingredient (seriously, go to your pantry and pull out ten items. I bet that 8 out of 10 of them have HFCS as one of the first ingredients...no really, go check. I'll wait.) I'm sure everyone has seen the commercials stating that "HFCS is made from corn, and it's comparable to sugar calorically and fine when used in moderation". But consider this: if this ingredient is in 80% of the foods we purchase on a weekly basis, how can we expect to use it moderately? And believe me when I tell you, this stuff is in damn near EVERYTHING. It's in bread, it's in jelly, it's in peanut butter, it's in certain cheeses, almost all processed food. And how could it not, it's production is government subsidized. What's even more alarming is how often it shows up in fat free foods. What good is "fat free" if the food is chock full of a substance that can actually help make you fat??

My advice to anyone who cares what they and their loved ones take into their bodies is to avoid processed foods all together. It's sounds like a daunting task, but once you make up your mind to do it, it gets easier. READ the labels on the foods you buy. If the first ingredient is HFCS or sugar that means there is a LOT of it in that particular food item. Stick to fresh fruits and veggies, organic meats or meat substitute. If you have "fruit rules" like I do (I hate imperfect looking fruit) invest in a good blender and make a smoothie. I blend up frozen fruit w/NO ADDED sugar, w/almond milk and a scoop or two of protein powder and it is a very satisfying breakfast. I also drink a smoothie if I'm craving something sweet. I have cut out all sugar with the exception of the sugar that naturally occurs in fresh fruits in addition to most items made w/white flour and I've lost almost 30lbs. It has taken me a really long time to come to the realization that I have control over me and what goes into my body. Consider this my personal PSA to anyone who reads this blog. There is so much more than goes into loving yourself than looking in a mirror and fully accepting what you see. It's also doing the best thing for you, no matter how challenging it seems because you know that on the other side of the challenge is a better you.

Take care of yourselves (and I mean that literally)

J~

Dear Bella

Please stop offering yourself to me sexually. I know you are in heat and I feel for you, but I just don't like you that way. Besides, you are a cat and I am human and I'm your mommy, so it'd just be wrong.

I promise I will get you fixed as soon as I can.

Love Mommy.


Now please...get off of my shoe.